hari nie banyak GILA dugaan. haiihhh =='

sabor jer laa. ALLAH bg ujian .

i'm SCHOOLSICK..!!

D A M N

menngis bgai nk rak td. HAHAHA xD

. sedih GILAGILA :'( 

bubye my dear..! :(

heyy heyy. opppss.. ASSALAMUALAIKUM  *selok bg salam x)

still tak gerak2 dr lappy. oh beratnyer buntut ku..!! xD

HAHAHAHAHA

ehh. malas laa. TAK ad mood. lg beberape jam n minit nk brtolak sblom ibu brsiap. gggrrrr... :/  tak boley ker masa brhenti buad seketika.. -__-'

byk benda tak settle kt SHAH. its all about my feeling n emotions..! huhh.

tapi kn. kalu saye tak blik, msti dyeorg RINDU..!! HAHAHAHAHA *perasan btol .! xD

ok3. NEVER MIND. =='

mom, i just DONT want to back there.

D A M N

mom said to me: (a few days ago,before she picks me) "why u have to be so tensed.?u know what. u just have to enjoy your life time. especially your teenage life..! "

when i told her about being a PERFECT,, she said:

"everybody in this world are NOT perfect. they have their own weakness. everyone makes mistakes. so, just be yourself,my dear. past is past. everything happens for a reason.. "

yeah.. agree wif her. thats why i love her sooo muchies. =) my mom, my friend.

act, ibu TAK speaking pon, i jer yg translate-kan ..HAHAHAHAHA sengal xD.

ok3. now, time to packing. da2 laa cik aufa, ringan2 kn laa buntut awk tuh..! HAHAX  :D

readers pon da naek bosan ngn prangai awk nie. ==' erkk.. TAK KESAHH ponn :PP

IGNORE ME , AGAIN..

byebye..! time to go to school :P

DAMN... AHAD..!! x(

okayy. hari nie hari AHAD..means, kene blik HOSTEL..!!  ggggrrrr x(

DAMN hari ahad. come on laa. dax SBP kn. sape yg TAK suka blik hostel kan. arghhh.! sengal T.T

nape laa doktor tak bg mc smpai mggu dpn jer. adoiii. *brsyukur laa doktor bg mc weii.! HAHA xD

ok3. bersyukur.. hurmmm. still TAK ade mood nk blik =='

prlu ker blik SHAH ..?  ad sape2 bley tolong jwbkn tak..? T.T 

HAHAHAHA   ok3..  *stop merepek-ing aufa xD

ta tau laa nape. sye ta puas ag dok umah. senang crite, TAK puas ag dok JAUH dr SHAH..

siyesly sye ckp. SHAH mmg best. cam SBP yg laen.

tpi, ta tau laa kenape. mgkin setiap org brbeza. dan setiap memori tu pon berbeza. haaaihhh ~___~"  sye jnis yg mudah trpengaruh dgn org laen.

paling BEST : sye mudah terasa+tersentuh+emotional  HAHAHA   *harap maklum ya..! xD

ok3.. malas daa nk merapu kt sini. nk packing2 . kmas brg. hurmmm.

PERLU KER MAKAN UBAT.....?? 

HAHA *merepek lagi. xD

sayounara~ :D thanx 4 read this message..! BHAHAHA xD  

IGNORE ME , OKAYY..!!

.: remember my friends :.

When you’re troubled and no one seems to care,
and you can’t find a friend anywhere,
remember that God is there for you.
He hears every prayer.

When life seems empty, your dreams far away,
and no one hears a word you say,
remember that God loves you.
His heart will never go astray.

When the good times seem few and you’re feeling low,
and looking for comfort, but there’s nowhere to go,
remember that God will help you.
He’ll guide you toward your rainbow.

When troubles assail you, and the world has failed you,
remember that no matter what problems come along,
God will always be there,
to help you stay strong.

                 

                    *so, this is my poem .! :D boleh tahan,kan.?? hehehe 

                  brsusah payah mncari ( tak  susah pon,search kt internet jer ==')

ALL THE BEST FOR ME..! :D

credits to: Poetry of Life.com

what a surprise..!

..masyaAllah..

nk TER-jerit da sye tadi.

mne TAK nyer, tgh2 syok mgadap lappy, tbe2 phone bunyi. tgk number, cm knl jepp.

so, sye pon jwb laa.. then..

O M G ...!!

dye call.! ya Allah. nk trcabut jntung sye..! hadoii  ==' mmg nk kene BEST FRIEND sye sorg niey. boley dye call dr situ.? ishh3. *ta de kje mamat niey*

TER-kelu lidah sekejap.~ HAHAHA xD

haaihh. mr.vamp. what a surprise..! :)

mmg awk nk buad sye sakit jntung ponn. =P

nasib baek call guna i-talk. kalu tak, abis laa coins dye. hahax  xD

caring GILA mamat nie. call sye semata2 nk tnye khabar jer..HAHA . *bangga sudaa.~*

SWEET GILAGILA ..!

ehh ehh, saye sehatt jer laa. alhamdulilah. =) demam pon da surut. so, ta yah laa nk risau2,okayy. ^^

btw, thanx for calling td. walaupon ckp skjp jerr. laen kali, buad laa sye sakit jntung lagi ea..!  :PP

: thanx for your caring too. =)

: i'm sooo lucky to have u in my life ^^

: sayang kamoo ketadketad ..! :D

: best friend smpai bilabila,okayy..! ^O^

C.U.A.K

cuak gila tggu 18 april nie. >,<  smpai tak lena nk tdo, ilang selera mkn. huhux. semua nie gara2 poem competition ari tuh. adooii..!! spoiler mood btol laa.. = ="

tak pasal2 kene buad semula. da laa dpn dak2 SHAH. gggrrrr..!

S.E.N.G.A.L

cuak sgt2. mentang2 laa kiteorg nie top 3 . aduhh.. sayang  cg Halimatun .! ;D

tcher Masz ponn ta boley nk buad ape2.. hurmmm.

da laa pesaing2 nye HEBAT-hebat.. alamak aii..! muhd rasydan n luqman nur hakim   ~____~"

ari nie da ari sabtu. bersamaan dgn 16 april. so, tggl lagi DUA hari lagiiii..!!!!!

OMG

ya ALLAH ..! bntu lah hambamu ini.. amiin

so, skunk tgh dlm proses mghafal poem. urrmmmm.. act, ta pilih ag poem yg mne satu nk bace. T.T    sengal kn saye nie.? errkk.

yg ta boley bla nyer. da laa dpn SATU SHAH ..! gosh! satu shah, means;  depan dyeorg semua..! aarrghh..! malu3..  ;O 

cannot imagine..

mentang2 laa one shah one family. ~____~!  

ok3.. chillax aufa. no biggie okayy...! alaaa..bace poem jer ponn.. ~

ho laa.. mmg bace poem jer pon..! cer kalu saye trsasul ker, terlalut ker, tbe2 tak ingt rngkap ker. camne..?? huhh.. *ok3. stop merepek-ing aufa xD

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

act, mmg saye tgh cuak gilagila skunk nie. ta boley nk dok diam2. adooii.

semuanye brcampur aduk.. seriusly, ta sggup nk brdiri dpn dyeorg sume. dgn semua mata2 yg mmandang. dgn tanggapan dyeorg. hhaaiihh.. dugaan~

okayy.

 

no matter what will happens. pray for me, okayy..! :D

doakn yg terbaek tuk saye tau..! huhux. need your support gilagila >,<

now, time tuk mghafal..!

chaiyok x3  ..! u can DO IT  xD  . insyaALLAH   =)

s a y a

L A R I

dari

PROBLEM


You can run from your problems all you want, but guess what? They're much faster than you are.

p/s: terlalu tension dok kt skola.. harap maklum.

heyy,

malas gilaa nk packing brg

da laa byk ag baju ta iron. bju2 yg laen ta lipat ag. = =!

yg plg TAK best nyer, ble abg saya nk blik awl..! errghhhh! sengal ar dye tuh.. sllu beria nk blik awl. relax ar dulu. bknnyer lari pon hostel tuh.. sengal3..

semangat SHAH btol laa mamat nie.

lg satu, folio seni  TAK siap ag.. hadoii.. susah btol laa nk carik maklumat . internet plk LEMBAP ntah ape2.. da pkul 11. mamat tuh blik dr seminar kul 1. oh goshh! 2 jam ag. dan saya plk, ta siap2 ag. tension laa.. ble da blik hostel 6ti, msti lg kucar. ~___~ manyak  BENCI  lorh!  x(

kdg2 saya ta sedar, yg sye nie PREFECT. *bkn PERFECT,okayy.!*

still dgn prngai kebudak-budakkn. haaiihh.. = ="

prefect yg tak bertauliah

bior laa. tak kesahh. =PP yg pnting, saya dgn idop saya.  

 STUBBORN  xD

*ok3.. aufa da mule ber-merepek-ing . xD LOL btol la...hee~

my problem is...YOU !

bosan

bile bgon pagi2 mcm ni, ta de laa plk org nk on9. nk text pon da ta de mood. pndg folio pon, da ta de selera nk buad. -___-

ibarat mcm saya sorg jerr yg ad kt planet niey. hhaaiihhh. 

thieraz pon ta on9 jugak. jajamcd, ad kt hostel; atlet MSSD . yg laen2 ..?? entah laa. ta tau laa dyeorg prgi mne. tgh buad peta dunia kott. HAHA >,<

syamila, urmm..tgh layan Pola dye laa kot. siaan mila, dye trtinggal Pola bear kt hostel. kempunan dye nk peluk. hehehe . sabar jer laa mila, ari nie kn kite balik SHAH. =)

mr.vamp, ta tau laa. td dye ad antr text. tp, entah laa. ta de topik nk borak2 kott.

my kacip, msti tgh tdo skunk nie. ta ponn, bru bgon tdo. = =" malas nk ganggu dye.

my second kacip, rindu laa jugak kt dye. tp, malas laa nk kacau......hadooii..

semuanya MALAS. ta tau laa ape yg rajin.. T.T

adoii.. perut da brbunyi laa pulak. dr tdi ta mkn2 lagi. hurm ~__~!  oh iye..! ckp pasal mkn.

ad something nk luahkn.

hmmmmm..pasal kt skola .

k. i love my batch. of course laa 10-14 =) bknnye 1309  x(

tp, kdg2 ad certain prangai dyeorg yg buad saya TAK suke n TERASA.

mmg laa saya suke mkn. but, thats NOT my hobby ! saya mkn ble saya lapar. ad ker org yg lapar, tapi ta mkn2 ..? @__@

saya ta tau kenape n mengape dyeorg nk ejek saya kuat mkn n seangkatan dgnnye. SAKIT sgt HATI. pntg nmpk saya pegang mkn or plastik mknan sekalipon, ad jer yg kuar dr mulut dyeorg. naufood laa BUDAK KUAT MKN laa.. itu laa, ini laa.. seriously saya ckp, saya TERASA GILABABENG dgn dyeorg.

prnah sehari tu, sye mmg ta nk prgi kantin n DM semata2 sbb dyeorg. tp, kwn2 saya desak jgk, dyeorg kata nanti saya lapar or sakit plak. yaa! mmg sye tgh lapar wktu tu. siapa yg ta lpar ble da seharian ta mkn..? org gila jer kott.dlm sehari, saya cuma prgi DM dua-tiga kali jer. selalu nye saya skip breakfast sbb mmg ta sempat nk turun. trpaksa buad duty2 aras+dorm+ duty prefect. sye jarang mkn kt kantin sbb nk  save bajet. kalu prgi pon, sbb nk teman jaja jer. itu pon, dyeorg still pggil saya KUAT MAKAN .?!

SO WHAT ...??!!

asal dgn korg ea.! saya sllu ngadu kt kwn2 saya trutamanye eira n nia. kdg2 smpai saya mnngis sbb ta thn dgn dyeorg. dyeorg mnganjing saya dlm kelas smpai kn wktu ckgu tgh blajar. mmg TERASA gilaa. sye diam n pendam jer. sbb saya still respect dyeorg sbg KAWAN saya.

tp.. mcm ni ker korg layan kwan2 korg..?

saya tak prnah buad ape2 mcm nie kt korg kan..? mmg korg anggap nie sbg satu GURAUAN.

sbb korg boley gelak2. saya sabar jer. mmg saya nie jenis yg cpt terasa n KUAT  EMO. so, kalau korg ta puas ati, terpulang laaa. sbb korg sendri yg buad saya mcm nie.

saya ta tau laa smpai ble saya boley pekakkn telinga, pejamkn mata.

KECEWA + SEDEY + TERASA  sangatsangat.. ='(

sometimes, we just dont want anything to happen.

when the time stop moving, when all the people stop talking, when all the things were at their place. when the past isn't past.

when i look back, i saw my memories. a child. a teenage girl. all my friends, boys n girls. my family. i saw the happiness and the sadness.

but, that is  life. u saw the happiness when u're in sad. i saw my tears; cries. i saw my laugh; happy. i saw everything that i can't take it back or repeated it again. they all my PAST. it is true; past is past. i agree with that.

when u make a mistake; it doesn't matter if it is small or big. they're still a MISTAKE. u 've tried very hard to redeem it, rite..? but, certain of our mistake, we can't redeem it.

we just only can look at them; let them go away..

..........................................................................................

OMG !..i've been wasting my time infront of this lappy. gosh! my art folio..! ggrrr. how come i've forget about that. hmm. my life is so miserable. ~_____~" 

time is moving so fast now

just want to forget ALL about him..

so tonite, i'll put my headphone on my ears, listening to a music that reminds me of him..

he just a guy. an ordinary guy. i've met him a year ago. we're in the same sport's house. major of the pupil, knows him. so, it is NOT strange if i knew him already. k.. the problem is.. he makes me sucks. yeahh. very2 sucks. he is very annoying guy.

hhhhhurrmmmmm

actually, he is a kind person plus a good-looking ones. but, thats not the reason why i like him, BEFORE .! errggh. i HATE this feeling very much. how come he came to my life ..??

oh boy.. =(

why dont u just let me go.?! stop pretending infront of me,okayy.! i hate u n all your friends ! u guys just a same ....!! 

GOSSHH !!

listen to me.

i, HATE u n all your life. just get lost from my mind. please..i'm begging u.! u just cant understand me, dont u..? so do i.. i just CANNOT understand u. u makes me sucks because of your life.

i dont want to mention your name  here.

nape bru skrang awk nk ber-kirim2 salam kt saya plak..? awk bru sedar ker yg saya da lame ta layan awk..? bru sedar ea..?? kesiaan. but, sorry to say, saya mmg da lme ta nk lyan awk. n jwb sndri jer laa salam awk tuh. kalu ad mulut, nape ta bg salam sndri jerr.?  malu..?? ehh, saya pon malu gak..! abis satu batch gossipkn saya dgn awk ! ingat saya ta malu kerr.? sakit sgt ati saya nie. da byk kali saya mnngis sbb awk. da byk air mata saya nie menitis sbb perbuatan bodoh saya. saya TAK patut knl awk dari mula lgi..  

awk buad saya anti  dgn nature dan semua tntg khidupan awk

God,

what's wrong wif me..!

*awk da lupe ker yg ..
.: kita KAWAN selama-lamanya :.

so, saya still respect awk sbg KAWAN saya, okayy. and NOT more than that. FULLSTOP. 

p/s: fed-up gilaa dgn dye.. hmmm ='(   

H.A.P.P.Y =D

ari nie hepi gilagila.. dont know how to express dis feeling !! :DD

rase cm nk melompat jepp!! >,<

pgi td g bndar, kt mega..kdai buku popular. mula2 cdg nk beli buku BI jepp. then, bru tringat ad something nk beli. so, pergila naek tgkat dua. round2 kt kdai2 kt situ. then, trjumpa satu kdai nie. n..... trjumpa dgn DOMO !!! :DD

mmg da lme cadang nk beli . akhirnya, dpt jugak!! woooohooooooo~!  \(~,^)/



lbey kurang mcm nie laa..<3



akhirnye, impian ku trcapai jua! hurm, ta de laa mahal sgt.  10ringgit   jepp.. hehehe~ ta kesahh asalkn demi DOMO =)

then, wkt nk beli DOMO tuh, trnmpk satu keychain(s) nie. cantekk sgt2. ad keychain ber-huruf ngn keychain kartun. bru tringt. bufday Nia da lpas, tp ta bg ape2 ag. so, i've bought de teddybear keychain 4 her. hope she'll like it =)

then, satu lgi keychain. for someone. hehe~ >,< bufday dye pon ta lme ag.

keychain yg ber-huruf tuh. tp yg sedeynyer. tade huruf yg brmula ngn name dye. so, trpakse beli huruf laen. huhu.. ='(

harap dye suke .

mmg shopping sakan kt kdai tuh. padahal ta de laa byk sgt brg yg dbeli. = =!

mane ta nye, da abis RM24 kt situ jepp. naseb baek ad bwk duit lbey. T.T

p/s : ble da lme trperap kt kdai tu, trus ta ingt tntg buku BI .. hahax  xD

life, hope, dreamz

life :

hidup ta slalunye indah+hepi. kadg2 hidup ini mnyedihkn. tp, itulah lumrah sebuah kehidupan. ta semuanye ok. ibarat roda.

tp, kehidupan lah yg mmbentuk diri kita yg skrg. sbb kita yg mnntukn LIFE =)

life only once

thats why sye ambik prkataan ini.  hidup sye hnya sekali . jd, sye kne gunakn hidup sye dgn sebaek2 nye. insyaAllah =D

hope :

kita hidup dgn harapan. kdg2 kita trlalu brharap pd sesuatu yg mustahil untk kita dpt. such as a love. not everyone in dis world can accept our love. sometimes we've been rejected, rite..? so, just love yourself =)

i'm always hoping 4 a miracle. a miracle that can change my life. sometimes, i hope ; if time can move backwards.. and i can fixed all my crippled years. but then,i realized ; if i were a God..

everyday,i hope 4 a something new to come. i hope, hope and hope..and it just only hope.. 

dreamz :

everyone has a dream. every girl dreamed 4 their prince charming. so do i. i have a lot of dream. and every single dream have their own stories.

a dream is something u tell yourself. a dream has a special meanings for the person who creates it

i hope that someday, my dream will turn alive in my life =)

so, this is me. i live in my LIFE, HOPE 4 a miracles to come, and DREAMz whatever i want

p/s : abis tunggang langgang ber-speaking  = ="..